A Love Letter

 Hello, it's been a while!

When we think of love letters, we often picture romantic sentiments. However, today, after a long break from writing online, I’m inspired to share something that I might usually tuck away in an old journal. You may have noticed that I’ve changed the header name.

"Discovering Arni" is a journey of self-discovery. Writing has allowed me to explore the depths of my inner self and the intricacies of my soul. Recently, I learned that "Arni" means "the sun" in Sanskrit. I was taken aback by this revelation as I’ve been seeking this ray of light to help me embrace a new chapter filled with warmth and clarity.

Dear God the Father, Mother, and Teacher,

When I was a child, I would put on my headphones as an escape, immersing myself in classical music. The beauty of those melodies filled the empty cup of my once battered young heart, creating a sense that there was a place where love and beauty coexisted—a true home. If these musical masters could create such works of art, then there must be a Source from which it all flows.

I searched the world far and wide for this elusive home. There were fleeting moments when I caught glimpses of inspired melodies: the sunlight filtering through the leaves of towering trees, the songbirds perched on their branches, and the joy of lying on soft grass, watching clouds glide above me, filled with gratitude.

Despite the darkness of the past, I now remember being nourished by music, moments of silence, reassuring words from friends and mentors, wisdom from teachers, encouraging smiles from family, random acts of kindness, and the unexpected fulfillment of desires—each feeling like the weightlessness of floating above the sea.

These experiences made me realize that I am but a drop in this ocean of madness. It was around this time that I acknowledged my uniqueness and embraced my true self, recognizing a voice within me longing to be heard.

For so long, I held myself back, but lately, I’ve broken that pattern. I dared to say no to jobs and relationships that no longer resonate with me. I found the courage to embrace my weirdness, to be seen as unpopular or misunderstood, and to unapologetically be myself.

In doing so, I finally found You, embodying the beauty and love I have long sought. Thank you and with much love.