|My morning coffee to kick start the day as a Stay at Home Mom|
How have you been lately?
The daily routine kicks in and before we know it, another weekend comes, another month passes, and in a few weeks, Halloween costume clad kids will be knocking on our doors (not that we have a lot of them) and our news feed will be filled with adult friends playing dress up. This means another thing, Christmas is not far away.
Where did the rest of your year go? Did you make a goals list last year? How's it going? Did you manage to tick some of the items off?
I made an exception this year. I didn't write any goals for 2014. I suppose it was because I didn't know what to expect of motherhood and for a change, I spent the year just winging it. Going with the flow and deciding on a few lifestyle and career changes to suit the present need.
The daily routine has somehow blurred the concept of time for me lately. Its only reminder are the milestones and daily changes I see in my daughter as well as the lines that are starting to appear on my forehead. I also feel blessed for the gift of time, for being a part of family and friends' milestones and achievements.
Yet, I do sometimes feel I am not present at all. Like a part of me is somewhere else. I am left scatterbrained most of the time.
At the moment I'm torn. I want to go back to work. Yet I don't want to miss my baby's early months while wondering if she'd receive the care she deserves and the care I want for her to have. On the other hand I want to reclaim my identity, but somehow feel guilty, afraid that my decision would affect her permanently. I know it's not fair complaining or even considering my concerns to be an obstacle where it's hardly one compared to bigger problems there are in the world.
Just like what I've been doing for the rest of the year, I'm going to wing it and see where one decision after another takes me. I'm toying with the idea of working part time as a freelancer while still balancing some time to spend being a Mom. Let's see where that goes.
Are you going to draft a goals list for 2015?
Love & light,