It took me quite a while to figure out what I could share with you today. I seemed to have forgotten certain parts of my life. Whispers of the past that I no longer think about, so I asked my Mom.  She reminded me of a story that I repeatedly told her, since I was in my pre-teen years until I finished school. So here goes..

Someone told me once when I was twelve years old, "You're such a lousy dresser. Look at what you're wearing! You're embarrassing." With that he dismissed me with a disgusted expression.

That was my Uncle.  For some reason, he was mean to my brother and I, when we spent summer vacations with them.  

I can't hide it nor fake it. My feelings are always written on my face. It's both good and bad, but my judgement gets clouded when I'm feeling emotional. Like when I cried and vowed to leave the island, about to give up, when I almost got scammed the second time around.  I usually have to sleep it off and step away from it all to get a better perspective. I'm still learning.

2) Perfectionism

I always expect things to be perfect, to happen effortlessly and flawlessly and I get easily disappointed when they don't turn out the way I want them to be. Then I turn emotional. I also have high expectations in everything. It's not good, because I tend to focus on what's wrong instead of appreciating what's good and right. Still a work in progress.

3) Eccentric, most of the time

I am an INFP (Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Perceiving). My mantra is, "I go with my gut and feelings 100%" I agree, it could be an annoying trait. Yesterday, we  hit it off, partied together and I seemed to have been the most bubbly and fun person to be around.  The next day, I am nowhere to be found and it appears,  I suddenly transformed into a hermit meditating in the mountains and there's no way of reaching me.  I can get lost in my dream world in a nano-second.  With a serious face, I would utter the most outrageous sentences that you would never ever imagine would be coming from me. 

The last few days have been very stressful.  We found the right land and we were in the middle of final negotiations the last few days. It's a small parcel of terrain that has good potential. We finally closed the deal today. There were many administrative processes that we were not familiar with. Most of which, were different from the usual procedures in the capital. I can't wait to share with you the knowledge I've stumbled  upon and the lessons I've gained during my trip. I'll write about my ordeals when I get back to the city.

I thought I won't be able to blog today. After transferring to a new hotel and some problems connecting with their Wi-Fi, I'm glad to be back online again. I'll now make up for what I have missed in the challenge.

Though I'm grateful that the high school, where I studied, taught us the importance of taking responsibility, time management and application of good conduct and moral values, there are things that we'll only learn in the real world. 

It's a crazy world and so many things are beyond our control. I just posted this photo because a cup of tea brings me a sense of calm in the middle of internal and external chaos. 

Today's challenge is to provide links to my favorite posts. Please feel free to click any of the articles on my Popular Post Feed.  I'd like to spend today in extended silence. I'm taking this opportunity to pray and send positive well wishes to Oklahoma. 

Wednesday : May 22, 2013
Day 22 Challenge: Rant about something.  

I'm still in silence. I don't want to rant about something trivial I'm experiencing compared to the catastrophes and tragedies going around the globe. I just heard that a terrible crime happened in our residential neighborhood back in Manila. I'll continue to pray and send positive thoughts to sad events happening in different parts of the world.

Love and light,

Arni

“Quietly endure, silently suffer and patiently wait.” - Martin Luther King

Perfect words to describe the challenges I'm facing today. You might have read my previous posts on my current situation and the power of serendipity, so I need not describe in detail what I'm struggling with right now. I'd rather stay silent and see how things unfold. For now, I'll leave you with an image of a nearby island we've visited two years ago, not far from the main island where I am right now.

Happy Monday!

Have a great week everyone!

XOXO,

Arni